My darling John,you taught me what love was,our short time together was special,im not sure I will ever understand why you left me,but im so happy you were such a huge part of my life,so thank you my darling,thank you for sharing the last 7years of your life with me,,now your free from the torture you endured daily,and your with our wee tootie,,that much I am thankful for,take care of each other until we are together again,ive thought of joining you both,,would be lying if I said different,but deep down inside I know that's not what either of you want me to do,ive got a purpose here on earth,you know what it is,and my darling you have my word ad promise,that I will succeed in making a difference for you,and others like you,I LOVE YOU ALWAYS